So since I last wrote, both of my cousins who were due early June had their babies. Robyn was first on May 31, a boy, and then Emily had hers today, June 13, a boy. *sigh* I know I have a baby already, not so much of a baby, but honestly, it takes forever to have another! Doesn't nine months seem like a long time to anyone else?
Speaking of baby, yes, there is another on the way. Having lost one already, I'm so scared to be typing this. I am almost to 9 weeks, this weekend will be. I am very much looking forward to getting pat the first trimester and having the baby grow normally. I know whatever God has in store, is the best.
Randy is working again tonight. He works a lot right now. We need the money. I can't be selfish and want him home all the time. It has been a growing time for me however. I have learned to rely on myself more. I was never an independent person before but I am starting to become one. I hear the words from Pastor Doug all the time. God is the most important person in my life. I need to focus on that and not rely on Randy as much but on God. Its hard. I want to find strength in randy, but in the end he will fail me. God will never fail me. The truth I have to cling to daily. I love Randy very much and always look forward to being with him, however, my strength needs to come from God alone.
Lets make this post even more random, I rented the movie, The Other Boelyn Girl. I had no idea it was based on history. I had to turn it off. I couldn't watch the truth of what was going to happen. I then went online to read about King Henry VIII and realized that was the king I learned about in my history classes at Northland. Dr. Bennett stood and lectured about this King and I half listened. Shame on me. He was an amazing teacher, boring at times, hard to listen to, but very intelligent. I wish I would have paid more attention.
Sophia is crying, hmm, should I take her some milk and cuddle her until Randy gets home, or make her fall back asleep. I really want my baby, so I think I better give her some milk and sooth her back to sleep. Randy may be disappointed to find her with me in bed when he comes home, but he'll understand. I hate being alone. Especially at night. I guess this is a small price to pay while we are getting ourselves out of financial woe. Its not forever, just until we feel comfortable again with our finances. When will that be? Good question.
Alright, this has been enough of a ramble. the title is all wrong, I know when it'll be my turn, Jan 19th (ish). Maybe he/she will come for Christmas. That would be an ok present dont you think? I found out on Mothers day, another worthy gift.
Goodnight all.
