Ok, so I need to keep positive here, and should just focus on all the good things God has done for me, and then maybe my negative attitude would go away. Its just so hard.
Lord why? I am so uncomfortabe and so ready to have this little boy out, but its just seeming to not happen! One of the first thoughts every morning is, I wonder if today will be the day? Then as I lay and just think about it, I tell myself, no not today.
I chat online with this birth board of other ladies all due in Jan, some have had their babies in december (10 actually) and this week is going to be a busy week. I think there are 6 definately going to have their babies this week. I want to be included in that number! I have a "birth buddy" and she texted me earlier and updated me that she will be induced tomorrow morning. *sigh* I'm not due till the 19th, so I have a few weeks technically, but come on, lots of babies are born within 2 weeks of their due date!
Also, I was asleep, sleeping soundly too, when Randy got home from work, which woke the dogs up, and my text rang on my phone... so I knew once I was woke up I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep easily. Oh I was right! I am up, at 3:41 AM just watching a re-run of some bowl game, the champs sports bowl game to be exact.... *sigh*
ON top of it all, I got in a fight with my mom. I dont think it was a fight, I just got really irratated at her and really wanted to hang up. My brother had his input on the situation as I was on speaker phone.... telling a pregnant lady she is going to be 2 weeks late (at this point) is not nice. I dont care if you are thinking it, dont tell me! Then to have someone who hasn't experienced this for himself (or with his wife) to relax and be patient.... um... NO! just let me vent and tell me its all going to be ok and move on. there are times I dont wnat you to fix it or try to give your two cents, but just listen. That was one of those moments. I just can't talk to her right now... I need to give it a day or so and calm down. She probably wont even think twice about it, but it really got me worked up.
Randy is also looking at buying a new van. And to be hoenst, I want him too... just go for it. I'll go with you and we'll get one tomorrow. I understand his reasoning behind making the deal soon on our van I just know its more stress or could add more stress to a situation that doesn't need extra stress.... definately got that going without anything extra right now!!!!!
Crazy! I think I am goin to clean. My living room looks like the toy box puked all the toys all over the place. Sophia is good at that. But the whole clean up issue is something we are working on... not something she has down yet. But we are getting there!!!!
Ok, you want to know a funny thought... with all this going on, I was actually thinking of trying to potty train her before this baby came.... can you imagine???? So glad I gave up on that dream... hehe... I would be in a padded room by now...
Goodnight folks.
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